Week 1 / Individual Counseling / 160317

For a while I should organize my counseling records.

1. Coming back from England and feeling that I've 'changed' is great because there are so many positive aspects. The fact that I was happy enough to smile to myself even while talking to the counselor means 'positive energy' is already flowing out from that part, so I'm happy.

Confidence / a positive attitude / a rediscovery of the positive sides of the country called Korea / praising a lot / living with composure / living while helping others / respecting rather than judging, etc..

2. I never thought I'd hear the counselor tell me during counseling that she 'feels cared for.' I'd always thought that giving someone the 'feeling of being cared for' while talking is always a difficult thing, but today I pulled it off. Will I be able to do it well with others too? I want to. I hope others can converse with me while feeling that they are 'being cared for.'

3. The words that friend said seem to remain like a 'Pandora's box.' When I said that asking and getting that friend's answer might make me feel a little better, the counselor said 'that may not be the answer.' Actually, in my own thinking too, part of why I can't ask is that I'm worried about the hurt I'd receive because of that 'answer.' I'm just too full of curiosity. So I think I shouldn't ask. Or should I? I'm not sure. I'll have to call it impossible to judge... ah, my head hurts.. Still, since not asking can lower the risk of getting hurt, I think I should go in the direction of not asking. I think that's the wiser choice.

4. In next week's session I think I'll talk about the first week of March. Today I did talk quite a lot, roughly. What things changed, what things brought 'positive changes' to me — truly, life in England has become a 'big asset' for me. The current Gwak Su-chang seems to be divided into before-leave-of-absence and after-leave-of-absence. Haha