Counseling Termination / 160701

Counseling is over.

I spent a two-week grace period agonizing over whether to end the counseling or continue, but since there were no difficult issues, I decided to wrap it up. I didn't separately record the impressions of the 13th week of counseling, but if I had to say what the biggest problem was when I got to the conclusion, I think I'd pick 'adjustment.' After returning from the UK, having no one to talk to was quite a big problem for me, who had been conversing steadily, but now, going through March/April/May/June, I've come to adjust to this even with a slightly smaller number of people to talk to. There were many difficulties in that process and sometimes happy days too, but the me of now is once again overflowing with confidence. I like the me of now, created by positive feedback about myself and by others' feedback.

There's no love greater than loving oneself. If you cannot love yourself, there's nothing more heartbreaking than that. When you can love yourself, you can stand on your own. Even if you don't quite know what you're pursuing, if there's a faint trace or shadow, you can live a life that follows it. The me of now is changing that way..

I'll wrap up this short piece without writing more. I want to just leave the lingering feelings and the unorganized thoughts as they are.

If by chance someone has a problem and needs someone to confide in, I'm glad that I've gained the capacity to listen, with improved listening ability, as much as they need, if they go to the guestbook and leave a private message. This is how I've grown one step.